We're moving house once again, from Park Island to Tai Wai. It's only been 7 short months. Everything will be missed once more.

After being "swept away" for 3 months, the routines of work has sunk in and days just seem to fly by. There are still many things to learn, but things are definitely much easier than before, it feels somewhat like a roller coaster. There are still times where I miss being free from responsibility, free to wake up anytime I want, it feels very distant now and I may not be able to experience it again for many many years. 3 months into my new job has made me more aware of life in general. I came up with the following:

Taking a leaf out of Dream Theater lyrics "Life begins on an empty slate", you start off with a blank white page, as time goes by, you experience more and things change, I've likened that to spilling some paint on the blank page, the "pure" image is distorted from now on. And as you grow up, your environment changes, you start having your own outlooks and opinions, more "paint" is spilled on your page, thus the original image you once had is gone. Sometime down the road, there will be certain "images" that you hold on to more so than others, certain states of mind that you feel define a particular era of you, good and bad. But time only moves forward, so we are forced to deal with these changes whether we like it or not, and honestly, sometimes I don't like it.

After the first day of work, I have really grown a lot already, so many things to learn, so many things to be aware of, so many things to be careful about. The workplace is much more complicated place than I thought, some things I expected but others not really. I still have a lot to learn to make it through this, day 2 is about to start but already I'm thinking whether this is right for me or not, I guess it's ok for my first entry into the real world, I will learn many things, but I may have to rethink my direction.